Friday, April 30, 2010
There is this cute new blog that I stumbled on, Newly Wife. I was searching for strawberry recipes, and there was Newly Wife. Oh, I could have used this blog a year ago! But it really is a good blog for anyone. Married or not. I really like all the recipes. You know, I'm trying to make an effort to learn how to cook. I don't want my baby growing up on frozen food and McDonald's like me. But it's a struggle. I like how they focus on one fruit or veggie a month. That helps. Because I hate grocery shopping more than I hate cooking!
But they're having a giveaway for this Garden Set. It has seeds, little soil things to start the seeds, and an apron. I didn't know that they had gardening aprons. See, I'm learning from Newly Wife. It's really a good blog! If you want a chance to win, enter here. Hurry up! you only have until midnight. H
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Pretty much T and I's marriage has been a total disaster. We were married in February 2009. By June we were separated. And by September, we were legally separated and I had moved out. It's been bad. Then out of the ashes of our marriage, I find out that I'm pregnant. It's a blessing. At least for me.
T, he's going through a lot of crap right now. Most, if not all, is by his own making. But instead of focusing that anger on the person that causes it, he focuses it all on me. It saddens me. A lot. My heart is broken. I do still love him. But I refuse to stay with him if he's going to treat me this way. I want for my child to grow up with 2 loving parents. Not in the middle of a war, like I did.
So we're divorcing. At least that's what I've been trying to do. But T refuses to sign the papers. But he also refuses to talk to me. He won't accept our child. But he'll except the child of his ex-girlfriend. He doesn't want to be married, but he doesn't want to be divorced. What the hell does this man want?
This T, is not the same man I fell in love with. That man was fun, caring, and loving. We would look out for one another in life. We wanted to be together. He taught me things I thought I'd never learn. And he made me feel safe and loved. Now, I just feel sad when I'm around him. And I feel sad when we're apart.
Especially when I go to my doctor appointments. I tried setting them up when he could come. But he refused to come. He refused to believe that he was expecting 2 children, from 2 women, at the same time. Believe me, it still makes me sick to think of the facts. But the truth of the matter is, this is our baby.
So what were our vows again...Love, Honor...
I hope one day that T and I can get this straightened out. I never wanted to bring any sadness or negativity to our lives or to this blog. This blog was to document our blessing. And to try and mend fences. For the sake of our child. The child that didn't ask to come into this world. But the child that we made together. We probably won't make it as a couple, but I hope at the end of the day, we can still Love, Honor, and Respect each other. H
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
The blog Cakies is doing a giveaway for Bellasymphony. And now that I think I'm having a girl, I'm allowing myself to fall in love with all these girly things. :) Especially this little onesie. So hurry up and go enter the giveaway for your chance to win a tutu or an ebook from Bellasymphony. H
The blog Cakies is doing a giveaway. It's for $50 to the shop Cinnamon Sticks. This happens to be my favorite piece in the shop. For your chance to win, go enter here. There are so many amazing pieces in Cinnamon Sticks. I'm sure you'll find something that you like. H
Monday, April 12, 2010
Don't tell me that this chair doesn't look comfy. In real life, I fell asleep in it, on the day it was delivered. :)
And a comfy ottoman, for those late nights of breastfeeding. :)
Yes, after looking and looking, I ordered this set from Babies 'R Us. I feel like it was a really good deal. Like I said, it's super comfy. It's firm and supportive, but really comfy. And I decided on the green, because it matches all 4 of the bedding sets, that I've been thinking about. Every set has green in it. So I think this will go really well. Now I just can't wait to rock my baby to sleep. H
Sunday, April 11, 2010
But these 2 videos give me a little hope. And around here, well Southern food is a must! I just don't know how to cook...
And now that I have an appetite again, I think I really need to start learning how to cook. Before I know it, I'll be a mommy. And my little girl will be depending on me to cook for her. I really want her to eat better than I did as a kid. I was pretty much raised on fast food and frozen food. Not good!
I don't think I'll start with this recipe. But I'm really going to focus on learning how to cook. At least by the time my daughter is old enough, I should know how to cook something. Something that tastes decent, and is somewhat healthy. :) H
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Happy Easter! I've always liked Easter. There is just something fun about it! Today, I was invited to an Easter BBQ. I'm really excited! Since I moved and changed jobs, I don't get to see a lot of these people anymore. I can't wait to eat and laugh. It's going to be a lot of fun!
And I can't help but think about next year. Having my baby with me. With a fun Easter outfit. And a big Easter basket. I just can't wait! My baby will be 6 months old. I just can't wait! Have a Happy Easter! H