Diaper Bag

I finally decided on a Diaper Bag. I ogt the Kalencom Quilted Traveler Diaper Bag. I wanted something that didn't look too much like a Diaper Bag. I like the sleek and chic look of this bag. And I'm really happy with it! It's surprisingly big and room. I know that you can't tell from the picture. But it's a good sized bag. Now I just need to get some stuff to put inside. :) H

Cloth Diapers

I watched this video by CandidMommy (aka Jeni)...



And it changed my life. No...really it did! I had thrown around the idea. I talked to my bestie about it. She is all knowledge, on all things baby. She is really the reason I decided to breastfeed my little girl. And she encouraged cloth diapering. But...

Well, I was a little weird by it all. Cloth diapers? Really? I wasn't so sure. But I thought, heck why not research a bit. And I did. I'm convinced. This is what I need to do for my little princess. :)

I just bought a bunch of Fuzzi Bunz. I placed an order for 12 of the extra small and 12 of the small. Oh, I also bought some bags for the diapers. Uncle S...well he went and placed a HUGE order! And got us a Diaper Service. Local. So all things are good. And we are cloth diapering. :)

I also talked to the Daycare where Charlotte is going to go. And they were actually really supportive of the idea. I'm so glad! I think this is going to be best for my little girl. And the diapers are so cute! H

Preparing for Daycare

Now that I know where Charlotte is going to Daycare, I'm trying to get ready. Her Daycare is amazing! They are so excited about us breastfeeding and cloth diapering. A very supportive place.

I got to meet with the ladies, that are going to be taking care of Charlotte. They showed me where they are going to store my milk. And they are very excited that I work down the road. Because I'll be spending my lunch breaks with my little girl. We'll both be having our lunch together. :)

But I also got a good idea of what we'd need. I picked up some stuff. And there are still some things that I'm on the hunt for. Like bottles. You know, for when I'm working. I'm also considering some pacifiers. Things like that. But here is what I've gotten so far.

Lots and lots of Fuzzi Bunz! I know we're going to need these. And I mean lots! Like in 3 dozen just for Daycare.

And a wet bag. You know to put the Fuzzi Bunz in. I actually bought 4 different ones. But this is the one that is going to stay at Daycare.

And a diaper bag. You know to put everything in. :)

This is a really nice Daycare. And I'm so lucky to have found it. They are so excited to work with the parents. And are willing to do just about anything to make it easy on you. I'm so glad about this.

There are still some things I need to get. But being that I still have almost 3 months until my due date, I think I'm on the right track. Is there anything else that you'd recommend? H

Perfect Set!!!

Isn't this set so elegant and cute? What a pretty way to change diapers! I seen this set on this video...



And I LOVE it! You can buy it here. They range from $35-40 for the set. They all have wipee cases. The sets either have burp clothes or a changing pad.

Oh, and it matches this Diapees case! So perfect! I just love this print. And the colors. I know, not traditionally a "girly" combo. But they also have it in pink. :)



I would LOVE this set to stick in my purse. You know. For a quick trip to the grocery store or something like that. When you don't want to take a big diaper bag with you. Do you know what I mean?

And the group that Sonia mentioned...I joined that too. It's a great group! And I'm sure that I'm going to use it a lot more when Charlotte is born. Perfect for a breastfeeding-mommy-to-be. H

Hair Bows

Now that I know I'm having a little girl, I want to get her all kinds of girly things. But everything costs so much! And I'm a single Mommy here. With a new house payment. So I really wish I could make these hair bows.

This lady makes them look super easy! But I'm just not that crafty. I've tried. I went through 2 spools of ribbon. The bows look horrible. I guess I have to start paying the $10 for a single bow! Maybe I should practice some more. H

Bassinet

I honestly hadn't thought of a bassinet. I mean, I had looked at them. But they didn't seem practical. I never thought that I'd be buying one. Or that we'd really need one. I figured Charlotte could sleep with me until she was a few months old. Then, she could sleep in her crib.

I got a Moses basket from a friend. And I thought that would be nice to use in the 1st few weeks. You know, while we maybe sat in the living room for a few minutes. But a bassinet, or a co-sleeper, I never thought about it.

But S came over today. He had this beautiful bassinet with him. Isn't it gorgeous? It's a co-sleeper too.

That "missing side" is like that, so it can fit against your bed.

And if you want to use it as bassinet, you can put up the sides.

It's absolutely beautiful! S immediately got it together. And put it next to my bed. Something about it, made me feel like this entire pregnancy was real. Like this little bassinet, really made my baby girl real. :)

I just keep looking at it. It's right here on my side. I'm in bed right now. And I can't help but smile. In about 3 1/2 months, I'll have my little girl. Right here, sleeping next to me. It's so exciting! H

Betty's Party Chocolate-Coated Popcorn Recipe

This seriously looks good! How did I find this video? I still have no clue. But this chocolate coated popcorn looks amazing! I don't have any of these ingredients in my house. Remember I'm trying to be healthy? Well, I might just have to go grocery shopping. I really want some chocolate popcorn. :) H

Diapees

I recently found these Diapees. I was looking for some Baby Shower presents. So many of my friends are expecting this year! I just think these cases are so cute! And they're only $15.



I really like this one. It's cute. I like the colors. Girly, but fun! And not too babyish. It's stylish and fun! :)

And this one, it's so sophisticated. I just love the print of this one. I think if I had seen it sooner, I might have done Charlotte's nursery in this fabric. It would have been so cute! And something that she could have grown into.

But I really like these Diapees. I need to place some orders soon. For my friends. And I really want 1 or 2 for myself. A perfect way to throw a few diapers in my purse. H

We Have a Daycare :)

I'm so excited! I found a Daycare. The perfect place. Literally, it's down the road from my job. Which is great! Since I'm going to be breastfeeding. That means I can spend my lunch breaks with my little girl. Feeding her. :)

And the people at the Daycare are amazing! So sweet. And really good with the kids. There are only 2 babies to 1 care giver. I think that is incredible. The Daycare is super clean. And honestly, it's a beautiful place. I feel really comfortable with having Charlotte there.

And I completely lucked out. Because a few days before I went to look into this Daycare, a family with 3 kids, moved. It just happened that I went for a tour on their last day. And the owner was there. She was beyond thrilled that I work down the road. And that I want to breastfeed and cloth diaper.

2 days later, I got the call. That we had gotten in! I'm really excited. And it's not one of those crazy, overly expensive places. But it's clean. Really clean. I think this is going to be so good for Charlotte. Hopefully when she starts preschool and kindergarten it will be as smooth. We're on waiting lists for both. Yes, it's that crazy here! H

I Year

It's been 1 year since I miscarried T and I's 1st baby. We didn't even know about our baby. Until it was too late. I found out I was pregnant the day before. While T was away working. And I took a test. Because I was curious. I had been feeling really tired. Despite our recent vacation. And it was positive! And I wanted to wait to tell my hubby in person.

That night when he called, I didn't let on. Because I didn't want him to know. Not yet anyways. That was the single worst mistake of my life! But I thought, in 2 days, I'd see him. And I'd tell him. We hadn't planned on baby so quickly after we got married. But most blessings come when you least expect them. So I was excited!

In the middle of the night, I started to not feel well. I wasn't sure what was wrong. But I laid in bed. Trying to sleep. But I felt horrible. Our dog, W, he just laid really close to me. Like he knew something was wrong. The next morning, I miscarried our baby.

I had to call an ambulance. Because I was bleeding so much. No one was around. My friends were all gone. My hubby was gone. Everyone was gone working. And I didn't know what to do...

I remember how cold and alone I felt at the hospital. All I wanted to do was call T. But he doesn't have a "regular 9-5" kind of job. He can't really call in sick. That left me unsure of what to do. I stayed in the hospital for 2 days. The night I was supposed to fly to meet T, I called him. I just told him that I didn't feel well. And I was going to stay home that weekend.

He was concerned. He felt bad. T wanted to come and check on me. But he had to be in PA. He thought that maybe our recent trip to FL had just got me tired. And he thought I needed my rest. I stayed home. Instead of flying to PA. And when he got back in the middle of the night that Sunday, I didn't want to talk...

It turns out, he saw some of the blood. In the bathroom. He didn't know what had happened. I think he was scared to ask. And he didn't want to bother me. Or upset me. So he left.

I didn't know what to tell my hubby that night. How do you explain that you miscarried your baby? How do you tell him that you kept the pregnancy from him? Be it just a few hours before miscarrying. I didn't know how to talk to him. And he just left me alone. For weeks, he stayed with various friends. And when we were around each other, all we did was fight.

T started drinking a lot. And doing a lot of stupid things. I found out months later about this. His friends weren't talking to him. We were barely communicating. And I felt bad. But I didn't really know how to talk to him. What would he say? On July 31st, I moved out.

In my heart, I knew that I had lost my husband. Something was different. He didn't want to be around me. And when I did tell him about the miscarriage, he blamed it all on me. Like I had done it on purpose. Like I was the one that was trying to hurt him. I couldn't get over that. And it wasn't T. He wasn't like this. Where was all this anger coming from?

We tried for months to reconcile. And until February, I thought we might be able to work through this. Well, I guess I was wrong. In so many ways. Because I really thought we could get our marriage back on the right track. We'd have date nights. Spend time together. Do little things like that. So much so, I wasn't as careful as I should have been. And we made our precious little girl on Christmas night...

On January 24, 2010 we should have become parents for the 1st time. From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I thought I was having a little girl. For months, I dreamt about a little girl. A little angel. I know she's in heaven. And I pray every night for her. I also hope that she is looking out for her little sister. Because Charlotte is going to need all the love she can get.

So much has happened in the last year. 1 year ago, my life was completely different. I had been happy. I was in love. I was a Newlywed! Counting the days until our "Honeymoon in Paradise." I had so many plans for T and I. I just knew that one day, we'd have kids. We'd be better parents than ours had been to us.

Now, I'm single. Pregnant. And trying to get a divorce. I'll always love my first baby. With all of my heart. She was made with so much love. A love that her parents had for each other. During such a happy time in their lives. What happened afterward, was never her fault. But I will never forget my little angel in the sky. H